WELCOME TO THE DOLL HOUSE

2008-10-05T20:30:00.002+08:00

Hello blog darlings.
I have now had this blog for 10 months
I have reread all my older posts
It really made me see how much I've grown as a person
You may not agree but I don't care
I went through it
I had to feel it
not you
So I felt that I needed to close this chapter of my life
and start a newer
more LEAH blog
Enough with the multiple personalities
I have found more of myself
And I don't have the inspiration to continue this blog
Corny I know
And to all my loyal readers...
thank you so much for caring enough to read
I appretiate it
And I realize that there may only be one person to read this
And you might be laughin that I address even one person
as 'loyal readers'
but hey, you're reading too
Here's my newest blog..

http://chez-mwah.blogspot.com/

Thanks so much for being part of my life
and if you got mentioned in one of my posts
good or bad
at least you were noticed and you made an impact in my life

so, for the last time here

x0x0, L

2008-09-28T23:57:00.002+08:00

UPDATES!!!!!!!!!!
I know,
you're all thrilled...

lol
HOLS!!!
1 week off before the examz...
NOOOOOO
Hahaha
Okay, so anyone who knows me
knows I have an obsession with celebs...
Don't ask
I'm not a stalker people!!!
but I have recently compiled a list of the
most beautiful women
and
hottest guys
But I can't really tell the world so I have
no right
to put it on ma bloggie
My bday was okay...
nothing really great but I had
alot of celebration before the actual date
Cat, Clover and I plan on going out this Friday
n get another piercing...
top part of the ear...
Crazy impulse but my mom doesn't seem to care...
she's just happy I'm over my obsession
with gettin a navel piercing
It's been sooo hot lately
Literally, school was really really hard to go to
last week
N I've been usin buckets of moisturiser
love it...
hate havin to put it on...
Been havin some problems with sleeping lately
who knows why???
So I now have lovely dark panda eyes...
no need for eyeliner anymore

p.s.I have no will to update much anymore...
sorry!
x0x0, L

2008-09-22T20:28:00.002+08:00

OMFG
I'm SOOO NOT HAPPY right now

What do you do when u realize that the people you really
really
trust as friends...
have been backstabbing you all along???

p.s. ouch
L

2008-09-22T16:24:00.002+08:00

Just shoot me.......
Take a gun
and pull the trigger

Bad day...
sort of
Aisyah's dad is in hospital
which makes me totally sad for her
And makes me feel bad for wantin her to hang with me
tommorow
I feel selfish about it and mean
But I can't help it
Lately, I've been finding it hard to tell people
stuff
Who knows why...
I DO!!!!!!
Not like I'm telling anyway...

p.s. wait...tomorrow's my bday??????
x0x0, L

2008-09-21T21:27:00.002+08:00

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colours
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder

I blame emo-boy for infecting me
Go murder him for it
Bhakti, Stef, Asha n JW set up this
incredible
suprise party for me
It was sooo great
They even knew to take me to the beach!!!
Hahahahahaha
But of course, the beach brought back
memories of church camp...
ahhh!!!
SOOOO LONG AGO
Things change so fast don't they?
Thanks sooo much, you guys!
It was literally the sweetest thing ever!
I heart all of you
SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
much

p.s. why can't I let go of you?
x0x0, L

2008-09-15T20:59:00.002+08:00

la dolce vita!
translation??
A Sweet Life

KL was fabulous
Jax, B and I all went from
Lot 10 to
Pavillion to
KLCC
and everywhere in between
lols
bought lots of great stuff
I found the book I was looking for
SOOO great
How did I live before them??
Stef n Asha are still havin their trials
and will be till the 22nd if I'm not mistaken
the lack of talking with them
is having a horrible effect
I miss chatting with them
but what to do?
Studies come first!!!
I know I haven't been very descriptive lately
And I haven't been posting much
that's because I don't really have much to say
I mean, nothing thrilling
or horrific is happening in my life now
It's just calm and smooth
and as boring as that sounds,
I'm quite enjoying the peace

p.s. Always be the star
of your own movie
x0x0, L

2008-09-11T21:28:00.002+08:00

Who will I be?
Yes, I believe
I can make the future what I want to

I haven't been updating much lately
Because I'm wayy busy with school
Soo many things to do.
Camp Rock was so so great
I loved it
Nick looked SOOOOO freaking cute!!!!!!
Joe was hott, as usual
And even Kevin looked good with straightened hair
And I really think Demi Lovato is a wayyy better singer
than Miley Cyrus.
I mean, she's only 16 but that girl has a voice!
So great
Lately, things have been going really well for me
Dunno why

p.s. Yes, I'm happy. Deal with it
x0x0, L

2008-09-03T21:45:00.002+08:00

If you can dream,
and not make dreams your master,

I've already decided on the camera I'm getting
I'm going to buy it on the 19th
with my friends
Then, we're going 'out'
Hahaha
I would just like to say good luck to all the form 5s,
trials!!!
Make IJC proud
But it's sad that some of my closest friends will be having
their trial right smack during my birthday
So they can't really have fun
Oh well.
Okay, so saying that I'm totally confident that
all my friends in form 5 will do brilliantly
would be lying.
They're all really really smart and they're all
straight A students but
I just hope they get what they want
I'm gonna really miss them next year..
after they've all graduated...
But at least I'll be a senior.
Freshmen, beware...
lol
nah, I don't pick on younger kids
I enjoy helping them out
Dunno why
Maternal instincts??
Hahahahaha
people have been asking me what I want for my sweet 16,
but I really don't like to tell people what to buy me
It's not how I was raised
I believe no matter what it is,
As long as it came with love

p.s. it's always the thought that counts.

If you can keep your head,
when all are losing thiers,
L

2008-09-02T22:35:00.002+08:00

I wish I could say the words you want to hear
But I can't lie

I won't just go around blabbing
about what's happening in my life anymore
It's probably gotten me in more trouble than anything
I dunno what to say now
I can't find the words to really express what I'm thinking
I find that No Air by Jordin Sparks n Chris Brown
is very soothing now though
Maybe that's it
I just love a song with meaningful lyrics

p.s. I am so so sorry
L

2008-09-02T17:32:00.010+08:00

we ended at the clocktower

Jax, doing what she does best while looking great

In the dressing room

Even MNG got a piece of our camwhoring

My hot lil sis

I heart Joss

At ZEN

Prove it then
Hahahaha

Don't lie if u have nth to back it up with
Garrett really needs to learn to keep him trap
shut
Went shopping with Jax n Joss yesterday
We can hang anywhere
It's not where u are hon,
it's who your with.
We cam whored abit
see above
n hung at ZEN.
Let me just say, to those losers in st. David or IJC
who keep bashing Jax,
We all know ur jealous
She's gorgeous, smart and so so sweet
U actually have to TRY to be cool while she does it
naturally
She's never done anything to you so stop being so totally
lifeless and focus on making yourselves
less pathetic.
Okay, now that I'm done with that,
since I've already recieved my darling new phone
pre-birthday,
I've decided to splurge on a new Camera!!!
Hahaha.
Since I'm such the camwhore
Been checking out the latest Sonys
I'm loving the T2 even though it's abt 10 months young
Jax has the identical one
So we'll match
I'm also planning on spending a day up in KL
with B n shopping lyk hell
I have major exams coming up after ma BDay so
Study study study
Hahaha
But I'll take pics while doing it

p.s. Obviously, the camera will be PINK
x0x0, L

2008-08-29T23:38:00.002+08:00

Outside Looking In
Jordan Pruitt

You don't know my name
you don't know anything about me
I try to play nice
I want to be in your game
The things that you say
You may think I never hear about them
But word travels fast
I'm telling you to your face
I'm standing here behind your back

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

If you could read my mind
You might see more of me that meets the eye
And you've been all wrong
Not who you think I am
You've never given me a chance

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

Well, I'm tired of staying at home
I'm bored and all alone
I'm sick of wasting all my time

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in

You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend
on the outside looking in

Don't be so quick to judge
x0x0, L

2008-08-28T19:20:00.002+08:00

The Sharpay of IJC
yes, that is my nickname
deal with it

New song!
I Want It All
by Sharpay and Ryan Evans. HSM3
Sounds and looks awsome
Been kinda busy lately,
sorry!!
I'm not even telling Asha or Stef my problems
It's so complicated
But in a good way
Trying to focus on studies now
crunch time people!
Went to the gym again today
Bhakti is coming down for a little visit tomorrow 2
So we're planning on going shopping
I already got a new phone
1 freaking month before my BDay
and my parents said it's not even my present!!
So I still get the cash to spend in KL however I like
Yay me!
Things are working out so well lately

Don't you see that
bigger is better
and better is bigger
a little bit is never enough
I want it all
x0x0, L

2008-08-25T16:01:00.003+08:00

I wanna get back
to the old days
when the phone would ring
and I knew it was you

Demi Lovato is excellent!!
Yes, the girl from Camp Rock
Girl can sing
Got a new phone yesterday
Pretty cool
Nothing fancy though
Don't need it
Church was good
Played Futsal with the youth on Sat
Loads of fun
I ended up hurting myself
But it was really funny
Lydia scored a goal
Go her!!
hahaha
I sucked at it
One week hols are now over
Sad sad sad
but next week I have a
4 day weekend...
so fun!

nothing much to say
x0x0, L

2008-08-22T23:29:00.002+08:00

Shoutout to Garrett
Yes, emo boy, you

You really don't know how frustrating it is
To try to help you with your 'issues'
Ur emo about the same things all the time
Boy, it's been a year since her
Please, stop being so sad about it
Move on since she so clearly
has
I'm saying this entirely out of love as your friend
People get so angry with you
Constantly whining about her
You infect people by being so emo
Every time I talk to you,
you're either emo or just sad
I constantly have to make sure you don't freaking
cut yourself
And I'm always making sure you're okay
Lots of people do
They really care about you
And about what happens to you
Ignoring them and only
obsessing
over her
is an insult to us
and all we do for you
You're practically saying
'You're not helpin at all and I only care about
her'
You still consider hurting yourself because she
likes someone else
You beat yourself up over something that she did
And it was clearly an issue she had
She's sweet,
she's nice
But she got over it
Why can't you?

f.y.i. We'll always be there for you
x0x0, L

2008-08-21T19:50:00.003+08:00

I'm so done here
Finally

I have had alot of shit happen to me this year
ALOT
Like, you don't even know
But I have come far and I've learned alot
And I dunno where it came from, but I got
more shit thrown at me
But you know something, I really don't care anymore
Go ahead
Say what you want
Yes, I am fat
Yes, I might be a fake
Yes, I might be a wanna be
And yes, my friends can be very flacky at times
But really, is this the game we want to play?
So maybe I'm not as mature as you
And maybe I'm not as smart or as experienced as you
And yes, I am a jealous person
I'll admit it all
But I really don't see the point of this bitching on blogs
And call it what you will
'She's giving up'
'She knows she's lost'
'She won't even fight'
No, I won't
Because I think both of us are mature enough to know better
This is so stupid
And yes, I have said some mean things that
I'm not proud of
And I'm sorry for that
But this cat and mouse game doesn't need to continue
You may be laughing as you read this,
'sooo pathethic'
you may be saying
Then so be it
It's a level of maturity
I'm done here

f.y.i. I don't want to play this game anymore
x0x0, L

2008-08-20T22:37:00.001+08:00

Treat your enemies with love

kill em with kindness ya'll
I'll pray for you
x0x0, L

2008-08-20T14:53:00.003+08:00

Okay, so there's this girl
Spreadin lies about me
And talking shit that I really don't appretiate

She thinks she's so cool
Now that she's part of my friends in youth
telling people crap about me so that she can
be popular and liked
Darling, that ain't how you do it
You don't need to tell lies
Just to get others to like you
I've spent 5 years in that church
Building up my credability and
sorting through friends
Tearing me down won't be that simple
And telling people my ex likes you?
I talked to him myself
As if!
He denies it all, babe
And people have confronted me about your lies
I've set them straight too
You sacrificed the trust other people had in you
Just to tear me down
Bad move

f.y.i. You've pissed me off now, hon
x0x0, L

2008-08-20T12:31:00.002+08:00

AVRIL CANCELLED!!!!
OMG!!! What a bunch of morons!!

"Yesterday, we mentioned how the
Malaysia's Islamists
wanted Avril Lavigne's concert cancelled.
Who can blame them???
Apparently April's moves on stage were considered
"too sexy."
Haha!

In Malaysia, they require all performers to wear clothes
without obscene or drug-related images.
They also need to be covered from chest to knees and need to
refrain from shouting, jumping, hugging and
kissing on stage.
Well, yesterday Malaysia ended up canceling Lavigne's tour,
saying it was appropriate, especially with their
independence day celebrations soon approaching just
two days after the show.
The Arts, Culture and Heritage Ministry stated it decided
April's show was not suitable for Malaysian culture.
A rep from the ministry says, "It is not timely.
It's not in the good spirit of our National Day.
If we go ahead with the concert,
it is contrary to what we are preparing for."
An official from the youth wing of the fundamentalist opposition party,
the Pan-Malaysian Islamic Party, said
"We don't want our people, our teenagers,
influenced by their performance. We want clean artists,
artists that are good role models."
Good luck ever thinking Lavigne is a good role model!'

Taken from perezhilton.com
Sad sad sad for all those who bought tickets
Thank goodness it wasn't me
but if they cancel the Jonas Brothers if they come
I will murder someone!!!

f.y.i. I'm so dissapointed with Malaysia Parliment
x0x0, L

2008-08-19T20:44:00.002+08:00

Music's in my soul
I get it from my dad

Went to KL today
Stopped at the Curve, Ikea and Mid Valley
Candles, sunnies, shoes and make-up, Oh My!!
I heart shopping
I also brought back a few cupcakes for my friends
Regret over that loser is gone
Temporary setback
Very odd
And I don't care if I feel unappretiated
I know I try my hardest to help them and one day
They'll realise it too
Maybe
Decided not to do anything to big for ma Sweet 16
Just going out then up to KL with some friends
That way, my parent's give me more money
for the cash I saved them for not having a huge party
And I can go insane in KLCC or Mid Valley
Fun fun fun
Can't wait
I'm also taking full advantage of my hols now
Going to the gym everyday
And hanging out with friends that I need to connect with
What could be better
Also, I have some major studying to do
For end year exams
Gag me
Oh well, I promised myself I'd do well
I'm not one of those girls who naturally get As
I'm also not one that goes to weirdo schools that
probably have very easy test so that they can get their fees
and students are happy because they think
they've gotten straight As
Oh well, guess we all don't get that lucky huh?

f.y.i. Hahahahahahahaha
x0x0, L

2008-08-17T23:59:00.002+08:00

UNDERAPPRETIATED
something we all feel from time to time
This is one of those times, people!

I try to be a good friend to those who need me
I try to be supportive even when I'm crying myself
I try to help others who have hurt me
I try to give good advice to those who don't want it
I've tried so hard for all of them
Can't say I'm like that all the time
That'd be lying.
But I really do try
But I always get that horrible doubt.
That sinking feeling in my stomach

would they do the same for me?
x0x0, L

2008-08-17T17:58:00.002+08:00

Regret isn't a word you'd usually find in
my dictionary
Until today

Shoot me
Just take out the gun,
Point it at my head
And pull the trigger!
I hate this!
This is sooo unfair for me
Lies are so easy to tell aren't they?
I just never know what is real and what isn't
At least I know I still have my precious little
sweetheart of a cousin
Hahaha
Some 7 year olds are sooo adorable!

f.y.i I heart Andrea, Bernice and Priscilla!! SOOO CUTE
x0x0, L

2008-08-16T23:35:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, that mountain
you've been climbing
is just a grain of sand

So Small
By Carrie Underwood
The BEST song ever
Absolutely awsome
so so incredible for her
I love her voice and you combine it with an inspiring song,
That's just so meaningful
Lydia came over today
The reason I love her is because of her advice
She's always there to give great advice that always helps
Learning to trust her again has been hard
But it's working out well
But I refuse to fall back into my A-List gal days
I will never become that girl again
I have left that in my past
So if you're trying to pick a fight with me
Or trying to make me jealous or mad,
It won't work.

f.y.i. My friends are my rock
x0x0, L

NEW LAYOUT

2008-08-15T21:06:00.002+08:00

Like it babies?
Not totally together yet because I'm kinda blurr
at the moment
But hopefully it'll come together soon
Lots of love and peace!!!

x0x0, L

JUST FINE

2008-08-15T18:53:00.000+08:00

'There are two kinds of people who love life
The kind who love it negatively,
like calling people names
just to prove something
when all it signifies
is that they're insecure'

Talked dad into taking me to Nike tomorrow
I'm in need of new sport shoes and sweats
Also going to pick up some new ear phones for my precious
Pink iPod
U can bet they're gonna be pink
Went to the gym again today
Have to go tomorrow after shopping
Planning on going everyday this coming week
since I'm free
Also ordered some stuff off the Victoria's Secret site
Sweet 16 gifts
Hehehe
Soooo happy about that
Yes, my life does consist of shopping mostly.
Got a problem with that?

F.y.i. 'the other person lives life with a positive air
Loving everything and everyone because they
Couldn't bothered to hate'
x0x0, L

ALL AMERICAN GIRL

2008-08-14T16:55:00.000+08:00

I am so not one
I'm mixed, dahlings n don't you ever forget it

Nth great happening lately
Just sitting around at school
Recently purchased Carrie Underwood's new CD
I'm not a fan of country music
but for her I'll make an exception
Her stuff is really good
I also bought Mary J. Blidge's newest CD
Very good
My obsession with sunnies hasn't died down
2 new pairs now added to my collection
Tried out the stuff at ZEN by Secret Recepie
Taramisu-not so great
But the Creme Brulle(is that how it's spelled?) was awsome
Big Apple Doughnuts?
Wayyy to sweet for my liking
One doughnut alone got me slightly sick
But it was incredibly good
My bday is coming up...
SWEET SIXTEEN
Should be awsome

f.y.i. another one bites the dust
x0x0, L

BO THAT, FREAK

2008-08-10T20:52:00.000+08:00

Get a life
and leave me out of it

Literally, I want nothing to do with
you anymore
Ruin your life on your own time
I've got better things to do

f.y.i. New me
x0x0, L

THE A-LIST

2008-08-09T15:44:00.000+08:00

If you have to ask 'why?'
you'll never be on
The A-List

Long time no type
Too lazy to even bother
And too busy with Sweet 16 junk
School
Friends
Boys
and all that jazz.
Bought 3 new pairs of sunnies
Why?
Because I freaking felt like it
Allowance was raised,
Shops were invaded
Lol.
Nothing thrilling happening lately
Shopping like crazy
Nails growing longer
Aisyah's Bday was a blast
But things since then have been sloww

f.y.i. So very bored
x0x0, L

I WAS BLINDED BY THEIR AWSOME-NESS

2008-07-31T18:56:00.000+08:00

Phoenix rocked the floor
It's moments like these I'll never forget

Once again, my cheerleaders proved
they are absolutely awsome together
Great job gals
So so so so so so so so so so so so so so so
so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so
proud

Candid moments

So tired after performing

Camera-whores, we are

Bang bang, chu chu bang, let me see you do your thang!

Ohh the love!

Let's bond through cameras!!

Ohmigod!! Her boobs are being violated!!

Picture perfect moments

Phoenix forever

Let's give a big round of applause for
the two gals who made this
possible!!

May I present, the state champions 2008
Phoenix!!!

SWEET 16

2008-07-31T05:46:00.000+08:00

And I've got friends who love me
Blue skies all above me

Happy bday Aisyah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We luv u so so so much
We're growing up, chica!
I'm so proud of everything we've been through.
Thx so much for being such a great friend and
always putting up with my crap
lol
You rock babe
Never ever change

Gonna spread your wings
Sweet 16
It's your chance to shine
Sweet 16
Discovering
Sweet 16
So much more to life
Sweet 16

x0x0, L

ANOTHER COLOUR TURNS TO GREY

2008-07-29T22:54:00.000+08:00

Why is it that I can feel so alone
In a sea of people?

Because I'm different
I never know who's really my friend
Noone seems to understand me anymore
Everyone seems to think I'm always wrong
Everything I do is a stupid move
I overreact
I'm moody
And I'm dramatic
apparently
I just feel so bad
I have to keep my feelings from my best friends
godsisters
& family
It hurts that noone gets me
And that if I say what's on my mind, I'll be critisized
I just don't think I should have to pretend
around the people I trust the most
But some of my feelings are just to hard to understand
They all judge me
They don't understand why it effects me

I just don't belong here anymore
x0x0, L

INTERESTINGGG

2008-07-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, the smallest of gestures can prove
people aren't always how they seem

I went for the cheerleading competition
It totally rocked!
I was SOOOOOOOO proud of the girls
Blue hse
Green hse
Red hse
Yellow hse
Who the hell cares?
All that matters now is that we all understand each other
We must learn to respect the other teams
They did it for IJC
NOT blue hse
NOT green hse
NOT red hse
NOT yellow hse
They combined to prove that they are ALL
talented beyond their years!
I am so proud to have been a part of cheerleading for 4/5 of my
high school years
We've been through so much
The goods
The bads
But in the end all that matters is the cheering
I'll never forget the moment they won
I wasn't part of the team
I didn't help at all
I had no right to be there
I had no right to be happy or relieved
But I was probably more proud
Than I'd ever been
Even more than when I was captain and we won
You know why?
Because they worked together
AS A GROUP
It was inspirational
You've come so far girls

Please, promise me you'll never turn back
or let it go back to being rivalry

Form 1~first place


Form 2~2nd place (Green hse deserved to win)


Form 3~1st place again


Form 4~1st Place (I was captain)


Phoenix forever


A few of the fab cheerleaders

Don't let them bring you down!

I am so proud of all of you. I'll support you through whatever
x0x0, Phoenix's no1 fan

THEY STILL CHOOSE TO MESS WITH ME

2008-07-28T21:54:00.000+08:00

Wow, I applaud your nerve
Now, for the stupidity of the choice...

Girl, learn some manners
You don't go around dating other girls' ex boyfriend
and then not tell them at all
I mean, if you had told me I wouldn't have cared...
But to just go behind my back like that?
That was low...even for you
Not to mention really
really
dumb

f.y.i. Watch your back
x0x0, L

GET A LIFE

2008-07-21T06:29:00.000+08:00

OMG
Like, live for someone else for a while?

So, even though this 'thing' ended a while ago
I can't believe it's still nagging at me
But one thing I do know
Every time I consider takin ur sorry ass back,
My friends are right there to slap some sense into me
Literally
They don't like you all that much
Can't blame 'em either.
These little twinges of nausia otherwise known as, regret
come and go
But once I actually think about it
I have no idea why

f.y.i. Watch your back, sometimes just breaking up
isn't enough for me
x0x0, L

p.s. No, I don't love you. You'd better run too.
Cuz I'll take him out and his little whore too
A.K.A you

THE DARK KNIGHT

2008-07-20T18:37:00.000+08:00

Heath Ledger deserves that Oscar
His performance was incredible

Just saw the movie
Very very impressed
I don't usually watch Batman
But Heath Ledger made it a real movie
His acting gave the Joker a real personality
He made it seem like The Joker killed beacuse he had
nothing better to do that day
such a pity he had to die

It was a great movie to remember him by
x0x0, L

THE ONLY LABLE THAT NEVER GOES OUT OF STYLE

2008-07-19T14:38:00.000+08:00

love

Today was a 'stay at home' day
I got so much done around the house.
It was a beautifully wet day and I loved it
Rain is my friend
lol
There are many people I strongly dislike in my life
I won't name names
But I must admit
For every thing they've done to me
I've learned something
a lesson or something of the kind
And I believe it takes alot to be more stubborn than me
And I salute them for standing up for themselves
These are the people I can respect
Not like
Not admire
but respect

x0x0, L

DON'T CRY, BUY A BAG AND GET OVER IT

2008-07-10T16:49:00.000+08:00

Love's like a runway
But which one do I love more

Obviously shopping!!
Hahaha
I'm having a crap day...
But I still love it
Because it'll be the last bad day of the week!!!!!!!!
Tomorrow will be totally excellent!
Here's the plan
Go to MP till 5
Go to concert at 7
get home at probably 1 a.m.
That's just Friday
Saturday consists of...
Picking up B
Goin to the club for some much needed swimming
Goin shopping at MP and catching a movie
Go for youth
Have a long awaited 'girls night out'
Get home and probably not sleep at all
Sunday...
Go for Cheer 2008
Go shoppin at Pavillion
Stroll around KL like freaking royalty
Go back to Melaka and B goes home
Fun huh???
I lurve weekends like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dad bought me a new book yesturday,
How To Kill Your Husband
I am so in love with it
It is hillarious
I made shepard's pie for dinner tonight although I won't be eatin it
Has anyone heard Britney's new song?
It's the PINK
absolutely fabulous
I jadore my nails nowadays
They're getting sssssssooooooooo long

f.y.i. I am soo freaking excited right now! I'm screaming!!!
x0x0, L

IF I NEVER SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN

2008-07-09T06:28:00.001+08:00

It's a well known fact that I adore Rihanna
I have yet to hear a song I hate

So far this week it's been total crap
I've had so much bad karma it's insane
Luckily, it'll all change when I go for the concert on Friday
Youth on Sat
And Louis Vuitton on Sun.
Hopefully it'll turn around.
Currently playing matchmaker for friends and lovin it
I see no need for a man at this time
Too much drama
Another thing that has been taking up my valuable thinking is
college
Yes, the question on which contenent to stay in
At first the plan was the US, then it changed to staying here
in KL
Now my parents want me to go to the US again...
I want to but I can't bear the thought of leaving
my friends and family behind.
I admit it would be loads of fun to be a normal american student
for once
And I'd love to be able to learn to blend in
But I'm worried.

f.y.i. the conflict has yet to end
x0x0, L

HOT PINK NAILS

2008-07-07T06:14:00.000+08:00

Gettin long...

Ah, the things I'll do for vanity.

Been having a great week so far...
Okay
So it's 6.17 a.m. on
monday
But still, I've been really happy with certain things lately
This Sunday,
I'll be headin up to KL to catch Cheer 2008 and
my dahling parents have decided to give me
an early birthday treat...
louis vuitton
That's right
My parents are taking me on a spree at Pavillion
So naturally, a girl like moi does her research
I visited the LV site about 19 times in search of the
perfect handbag &
perfect wallet
I'm still narrowing it down but I have a few favs

The purple

The red

The classic

Luggage

Moving on to wallets

The 'french' wallet

The red wallet (it comes in purple too)

There's a few others but u get the picture...
I just can't choose...
Anyway, I can't wait to go shopping!

f.y.i. It'a a right, not a privillage
x0x0, L

SECOND PLACE

2008-07-03T06:42:00.000+08:00

Yea, it's fine
But it's the first loser

I refuse to take second place to anyone anymore
Espescially when I know I can do better but am
to lazy to try

f.y.i. Watch out Aisyah, I'm done playing dumb
x0x0, L

IT'S A GIRL THING

2008-07-02T22:10:00.000+08:00

What can I do?
I have a passion for expensive toys

Everthing's been going downhill lately and I can't keep up
So many bad things happening
Sucks lyk hell
The only thing good happening is the fact I'm going to catch
Cheer 2008 on the 13th.
KL shopping here I come!!!!!
Can't wait
I just don't get it, after all this work I've been doing and
how I've tried so hard to put aside our differences
you'd think I'd deserve some good karma or something right?????

f.y.i. Nope, not getting ANY
x0x0, L

HOTNESS

2008-07-02T19:53:00.000+08:00

Life looks so much better
After a day at the spa

While at the Spa
I noticed the one woman who came in after parking her
7 series BMW
Who had a maid and a small child
A little boy
He was tres aborable!!!!!!!!
When I needed to hand my mother the keys to the locker
Through the door
I opened it slightly and he immediately pulled at the door abd said
"Close the door!! Shamefull!" in chinese
It was sooo cute
I literally almost melted
Anyway
Discussed the problem abt Stef wit Asha and as usual
She made perfect sense while making me feel like a selfish
bitch
yay me...
So, I now know how to handle the situation
Got into in with Aisyah n Khadijah today
huge argument
A shall be eating lunch with different friends for a few weeks
Whatever, she was being a bitch anyway
Going to see Wanted this Saturday
Yes, I actually look old enough to get in
How cool
I'm also in charge of buying 5 tickets for other gals
funn
I'll admit I was having an EMO moment at school today
Glass may look clear but you can't reach through it and
touch what ever's behind it

f.y.i. Congrats to all the prefects retiring this Friday!
x0x0, L

SUCH A STRESSFUL TIME

2008-07-02T06:13:00.001+08:00

Why is after every week of perfect days,
Comes a total crap week?

So many things happening right now
Too many things to do
Too many ppl to deal with
Not to mention I've been reconsidering some things
Some of the ppl in my life are lying to me now
And I know what I have to do
But that's not always it, is it?
We may know what we have to do but it's
never easy
So I thave to think about what I'm gonna do
And how I'm supposed to get out of it
untouched
We're having some random dance thingie at school today
Looking forward to seeing all the girls get high and act like
monkeys

f.y.i Everything u know is about to change
x0x0, L

A LOCK IN THE SHAPE OF A HEART

2008-07-01T21:08:00.000+08:00

I think it's about time everyone knew...
why it was so easy ditching you

Not admitting we're together...
Lying to people about us
Creeping around with 'her'
not changing ur status on friendster or facebook
Not saying anything to anyone about us
Your dirty mind
Never making up your mind
being such a wimp
Going to fast
Takin advantage
Underestimating me
Thinking I'm actually stupid enuf to wait around
Being way too girly

N finally~ Now that's it's over, you don't even care.......
there's my proof
it's over
x0x0, L

SCAVENGER HUNT WAS FFFFUUNNNNNNN

2008-06-29T06:41:00.000+08:00

We decided to camera whore

we're movin on up

we're the one's behind the window

sunnies

we heart will smith

we heart this rock

we heart each other
see ya next year!!!!!

x0x0, C.L.A.Y

NO RAIN

2008-06-28T07:56:00.000+08:00

Thank goodness 4 that
Scavenger Hunt today babies!!!

HAPPY BDAY LUCIA
Sweet 16 babe!!
I'm going for the Avril concert in August
Should be funn
I'm sittin in my room waiting to go for scavenger hunt
I woke up at 6.30 a.m. because I couldn't sleep
So now I have nothing to do...
brilliant of me, huh?
Nvm
I'll just go watch
Sex and The City again
yea, I'm addicted.

f.y.i. It's not wrong
x0x0, L

LABLES OR LOVE

2008-06-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is Scavenger Hunt
Expect tons of pics

Aisyah is going to Sarawak today
I'm gonna miss u!!!
But she'll be back on Sunday...
Lol
I'm also in the middle of writing a new story called
The Life Story Of A Generation
Different chapters tell different stories about different teenagers
I hope it'll turn out well
I have to wake up at 7.30 a.m. tomorrow to wash my hair...
fun...
Mimi got super pissed at some girls in my class today
N I don't blame her
Some ppl they let into these schools are just insane
I really can't wait to hang out with Lydia, Jax n Wen Lin
After scavenger hunt tomorrow
DP and MP shall be taken over by the youth of
C.L.A.!!!!
Super excited about that.
Dad's giving me money to have some fun with my girls so
Thx, dad

f.y.i Now that it's over, it never happened.
x0x0, L

ALL DRESSED UP IN LOVE

2008-06-26T17:10:00.000+08:00

No, not for you
For all my friends

HAPPY BDAY WEN LIN!!!
Please don't misunderstand,
I'm not inlove with these girls
I just love them like the sisters I never had
The things I've done in the past to some of them
Was really stupid and unfair
So now I'm putting it right
Smart, not really
The right thing to do, yes
Of course, there are some things, I'll never put right
Just because I don't see the need too

f.y.i. I LOVE you, Jax, Wen Lin, Aisyah, Asha, Stef,
Aien, Bhakti, Bonnie, Krystyn, Saiful, Khadijah,
Andrea, Li Hui, Rowena, Lucia n everyone else!
x0x0, L

2008-06-25T18:25:00.000+08:00

Still sweet, not so little

My other sweet lil g.s.

My sweet lil g.s.

C.L.A.Y. Water Day 2008

x0x0, everyone I know

OMG!!

2008-06-25T17:51:00.000+08:00

Thank goodness
Yup, it's working again!!!

Today was a good day so far.
I spend entirely to much time in hair salons
But they're addictive
I went back to my fav hairstylist
Hazel
N went a tad lighter on my highlights
I also recut my fringe so that it didn't get in my eyes
Anyone who truely knows me knows that I
love
the Jonas Brothers
hot hot HOT
They're newest song
Burning up
Is SOO great
And Nick's new haircut is totally perfect
I have double accounts tomorrow
not really looking forward to that but I also have
Double english which is by far my fav subject

f.y.i I'm going to add some pics for all to see!!!
x0x0,L

I DON'T NEED THIS

2008-06-24T15:17:00.000+08:00

I'm not the type to wait around
Get that right

Something I realized today...
I really don't need you to live
I did fine before you
N I'll be great without you
It's not about her
It's not about me
It's about you
How do you expect to be with someone
While you still love someone else
Learn to treat girls right
We ain't you toys
We aren't going to sit around and wait for you to
Get over her

f.y.i We have a life too
x0x0, L

N IT'S BACK

2008-06-21T15:47:00.001+08:00

Yup, it's not working again
Seriously, this is gettin old

I just watched Sex And The City again
I am inlove with that movie
Sure, it can be totally gross during some parts,
But it has such a great story line
And I can't help but grin at the end of it
Such a great ending
It even cheered me up after what had happened tonight
Which took alot

Do you ever have those days where you look at your life
Think about your friends
And feel so great about everythihng that's happening?
Well, I'm having one of those moments right now.
Maybe it's the song I'm listening to...
You should hear it sometime...
It's called
All Dressed Up In Love
Jennifer Hudson
But I'm feeling it more for my friends n
Life
Maybe I'm being stupid
But hey, I'm allowed to have my moments of happiness too

f.y.i. Everything that has happened to me
It's taught me something
x0x0, L

FEELING DOWN

2008-06-21T09:15:00.000+08:00

First time in a while
Maybe it's the SUPREME BORDEM

I've decided that since my dog can't give me puppies
I'll buy my own!
Yup.
I'm going to go out later n get a freakin puppy
I've been waiting for too long
I've got church today at 4
HAPPY BDAY GARRETT!!!
Have a great one
Yup, my precious lil bro is turning 15
awww...so cute
Hahahahaha
He's gonna hate me for this
Can't wait to get my new phone
Khadijah got her results yesturday and failed 4 subjects
And she's taking her SMP this year!!!!!!
But u know what her mother did?
She yelled at the teacher and bought Khadijah a new phone...
WTF right???
SOOO unfair
My parent teacher meeting well great
I went to catch Get Smart with my parents after
Then to the gym
Swimming
Running
Golf
Tennis
It's all good
N don't worry, I'll find someone to hang with today

f.y.i My bordem doesn't last long
x0x0, L

THANK GOODNESS

2008-06-20T06:31:00.000+08:00

Yay!! Blogger is back to normal
Now, for the bad news...

My dog had her pup
Yup..
PUP
There are more but they're still inside...
It's been 12 hours since the first came out.
And it's dead
I'm extreamly worried so
me and my parents are takin her to the vet today
In other news...
I've recently become horribly obsessed with horoscopes
Don't know why
Printer's working again and I'm so happy
I can finnaly begin to waste good ink again!!!
Hahahaha
There's a parent-teacher meeting at school today n no
I'm not worried
Just saw the Sex & the City movie and it totally rocks
I heart Carrie Bradshaws closet!!!!!!!
Lol
After pickin up my report card today I'll be headin to the gym
I know...sounds SOO fun right??
Lol
Whateves.

f.y.i. Like I care
x0x0, L

WHAT A GREAT DAY

2008-06-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

Who knew??
I can actually enjoy school

Life's so much better when everyone seems to be
on your side
Plesant feeling isn't it?
I finished my pesky folio today
Such a relief
I photocopied my lost accounts book
I printed the pictures for my report
I actually wrote the freakin report
And I managed to exercise and read my book too!!!
Yea, I can multitask
Something's up with my Create Post thing
I can't change the font or colour the words
That's why this blog post looks so freakin weird
Whatever, it's just a post
School was okay today
I enjoyed sitting infront and actually listening
for once
Lol
Unfortunately, my life with cash,
isn't so pretty...
Not only do I owe my parents RM50
But I also have to save up for Wen Lin's Bday presie
Buy a new purse
Buy new liquid paper
And buy Garrett's Bday present...
It's this Saturday...
I'm screwed...
I talked to my 'friend' today
Yea, the one I was talking abt in the previous post.

f.y.i. It worked great!
x0x0, L

Horoscopes

2008-06-16T17:03:00.000+08:00

Yea, I read them
Suprisingly accurate

Being as how I was born at midnight on 22 Sep
Technically it's supposed to be the 23rd
But I can still pick between being a Virgo or Libra...
So I read both and pick my favourite...
Hahahaha
Stupid, I know
Today, one said that I'd be really busy...
The other said....smt
I DON'T REMEMBER IT OKAY!!!???
But whatever it was, it was extreamly
accurate
my friendster horoscope said to tell someone what I think of them
I considered a few different ppl
Some were to mean to write...
N some would probably wound kinda weird
So I decided to pick one I wrote for...a friend...

Yea, we haven't always gotten along
N yea, we used to argue so much we would cry all night
But lately, I've realized that u were a great friend
And I didn't appretiate it
I'm sorry for accusing u of so many things
And I'm sorry for being a backstabber.
But I hope we can put all this behind us and start over
Some of the actions I made that night was out of anger
I wasn't thinkin before I did it
So, I'm pretty sure you don't read my blog but if you do...
I want us to go back to the way we were
everything

f.y.i. When I said everything, I meant being closer than friends
almost like sisters
x0x0, L

OLD FRIENDS

2008-06-15T20:44:00.000+08:00

Moi, Lydia n Jax

Jax, me n Wen Lin!!!

f.y.i They rock

x0x0, L

100TH POST

2008-06-15T13:57:00.000+08:00

Yay me
Okay, that's enough of that

Today was totally fun.
I hung out with the fun ppl in church
Going shopping later with my mom and dad
Happy Fathers Day!!!
Hahaha
I know, I'm random
If all of you will check my friendster u might notice smt different
If you can actually spot it...
go u
Hahaha
Can't wait for Scavenger Hunt next next week
Shud be fun...
Of course, with the hols just over...
I can't wait for the
2 month hols!!!!
OMG!!! Just thinkin of the stuff I'm gonna do with ma friends
We're gonna go insane...
Being as how it'll be our last year in High School next year
And we have lyk, the biggest exam of
our lives
So we wanna relax and go wild..
NOT THAT WILD!!!!!
Don't go thinkin dirty things...

f.y.i. Think...roadtrips and singapore...
x0x0, L

BE CAREFUL WHAT U WISH FOR

2008-06-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

Cuz u just might
get it

Addicted to this new song
When I Grow Up
Pussycat Dolls
It's sooo great
Nth much happened today
Went to church but nth much happened...
For those who know me...
U'll get that...
Can't wait for the birth of Camille's puppies...
Names??
Hahahahaha. I named them while I wuz high
Nvm, I'll let u know what they're names are when they arrive

f.y.i. They all have 3 names...
x0x0, L

DON'T JUDGE A BOOK

2008-06-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

You could be wrong..

N look like an idiot

Okay....now ur just being stupid

Pls....I'm begging u

With all that I have

STOP BEING SOOOO OBSESSED WITH HER

She's done with you

Get over it and move on!

I like her...she's nice

And I care abt u lyk a big sis

But in this case...both of you are

morons

Just end it once and for all and stop pretending to

care

It's hurting both of u sooo much

Not to mention it's pissin me off

When she's with me, u won't stop msgin me

tellin me to tell her stuff

tellin me to send her money

tellin me to call her for u

tellin me to lend her my phone to use for

4 hours

I'm done helpin u

this is my plea to u

get over it

f.y.i. It's not cute anymore

Just freaky

x0x0, L

LIFE'S SOOO GOOD

2008-06-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

Yea, u haven't sucessfully ruined it yet
Why don't u bitch about it?

Went to MP today wit Lucia
Saw an old friend
Kinda awkward but whatever
I'm presently in posession on Jazel's camera...
having loads of fun wit it....
Also feeling kinda weird abt something
ppl are SO busy now...
something's changed...
Oh well, dealing!!!
Going shopping AGAIN tomorrow
Buying some hairbands...
Went to see a movie today and went bowling...
Had sooo much fun with Aien n her 'gang'
Looking forward to youth tomorrow
I miss them SOOO FREAKIN MUCH

f.y.i. Yea yea, I know I'm not thin
don't rub it in my face
x0x0, L

ADDICTED TO....

2008-06-12T06:37:00.001+08:00

No, I'm not on drugs
Just a few little things I can't live without

Cell phone
iPod
odm watch
Mom's advice
MSN
Candles
Money
Lip Gloss
Friends
Music
Books
Magazines
last but not least
being myself

f.y.i. I really don't care if that's hell for u
x0x0, L

THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE

2008-06-10T18:16:00.000+08:00

Nothing will change
I promise

Mid terms were awsome
Hahaha
But what does one do about the results
That one doesn't like?
Simple
One crash studies for the next exam
And totally blow thier tiny little brains
Sometimes my competitive side can get the best of me
But it keeps me alert
Can't be to careful in a school full of smart-ass bitches
Yea, IJC is the top school in the state
GO US
Not all of them are horrible though
There are a few that are smart and nice...
unfortunately, they're rare
Went to the gym after school today
3 hours....
ouch
Looking forward to relaxing in my room tonight with
milo
PJs
Comfy pillows
Cool airconditioner
& Gossip Girl reruns via computer
sigh...
Can't wait!

f.y.i. Her advice rocks
x0x0, L

BRING IT ON

2008-06-09T15:22:00.000+08:00

Go ahead
I dare you

First day of school!!!
Totally awsome!
I missed my friends SOOOO much!!!
Results, not that bad.
Hahaha.
Stayin back with Aishi tomorrow.
Should be funn!!
Gar is still havin gal problems and I really dunno how to help him
Poor boy's lost it
I just wish he'd not let it effect
everything
Oh well, nth much I can do
I'm just his big sis
All other friends are thier usual
fabulous selves

f.y.i. they didn't appretiate that
x0x0, L

THAT'S JUST THE WAY WE ROLL

2008-06-08T21:57:00.000+08:00

We are wild, we are free
we are more than you think, so call us freaks
But that's just the way we roll

School is starting in an hour.
This was by far the best holiday I've had yet
I learned not to judge ppl
I learned to forgive ppl
I learned to give credit for every little thing they do
I've leaved the value of not being emo
I just hope I can pass it on to my friends
I'm so happy that I got to really enjoy these holidays
And I'm so happy to be going back to school
I've missed my usual friends
I plan on going back, a lil bit more mature
But not that mature
I'm still 16 and I'm still irresponsible

f.y.i. N that's just the way I roll
x0x0, L

HAPPY-NESS FOR ALL

2008-06-08T14:21:00.000+08:00

Everyone is feeling it
And so am I

AWWWWWWWWWW
I'm so proud of all my ladies
Props gals!
They all had a fabulous holiday
and I think we all learned something
I'm in a really great place in my life right now
It's nice to have so many friends I know I lurve
One day, I'm planning on setting up a lil photoshoot
For me and all my closest BFFs
Should be awsome

f.y.i When it comes to friends
I lurve all of them...even the idiots. Lol.
x0x0, L

CAMERA WHORES

2008-06-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

we
are

Just got home from a fun night out
wit a few friends
awsome time
I wasn't even emo!
It was the highlight of everyone's night
There's been a rumor going around church lately
and I just found out
everyone knows...
Oh well, I don't care.
It's not like it's a lie anyway
I'm worried about going to school on Monday but I'm happy
that Stef is coming home tomorrow
After spending so much time with the C.L.A.Y
I'm gonna miss them so much when I can only see them
once a week!!!
OMG I'm soooo gonna miss them
Some ppl are telling me now that I've gone back
to some older friends
that I'm becoming the girl I was back then
but I don't believe it because I know who I am
And I'm not gonna let my friends change that
Going shopping with mom tomorrow and I can't wait
Finally some free time with family!!

f.y.i I'm not available anymore
x0x0, L

FIRST TIME

2008-06-07T12:48:00.000+08:00

Wen Lin is here with me today
first time I'm typing my blog with someone

We're hanging out in my room
chillin to Avril's Hot
Cool song
Going to Jusco soon for Jax's presie
Looking forward to buying cakes!!!
Ppl have been complainin that I don't have any pics of
moi
at church camp
but I was behind the camera!!!
I prefer the pics of them
Whatevs
Found the cell phone I was looking for
Not too hi-tech for me
But can still get the job done
The Nokia 5610 xpress music
Totally haute now
Wen Lin got her phone so I'm so happy for her
About time too!!!
Lol

f.y.i. Sometimes, your dreams can come true
when you least expect it
x0x0, L

FRIENDSHIPS

2008-06-06T22:26:00.000+08:00

they say it comes and goes
but mine comes right back

After church camp
I think we all feel this weird connection and we miss hanging out
at least, I do
I've started chillin with Lydia, Wen Lin, Joanna, Jazel and Sharon again
and it feels awsome
I totally forgot how much we really have in common
I've really missed having them as friends
So we've decided to try to rebuild our friendships
I can't wait
Wuz recently reading the blogs of some ppl and I had fun
thier lives are like some bad drama series

f.y.i. I pity u
x0x0, L

PICCAS!

2008-06-04T10:59:00.000+08:00

x0x0, C.L.A.Y

2008-06-04T10:41:00.000+08:00

totally rocked
enuf said

Stayed up till like 3 a.m. with my friends every night
Hung at the beach as often as possible
Got in trouble for breakin curfew
by 4 hours
Sang like crazy
Bonded with old friends
Watched the sun rise and set
And had a blast

Overall, I had fun

p.s. yea, I didn't reveal much. Sad huh?
x0x0, L

SO MUCH TO SAY

2008-05-31T23:30:00.001+08:00

life's what happens
when you're busy being stupid

KL was totally fabulous
as always
got some new facial products
can't wait to leave for PD tomorrow
Yes ppl, I'm going for church camp
ahhhh....
the time spent with friends and frienemies
the cute couples hangin out on the beach at night
the new gossip sprouting
and of course
the new romances
my favourite part
I presently have 3 very full bags
for 3 days....
I'm not one for packing light
not to mention 4 pairs of shoes....
anyway
Stef's out for SUKMA for 10 days and she'll be gone till
next Sunday
Poor Stef
can't enjoy her holidays like the rest of us
My BFF is presently sunning by the beach as well
have fun while you can, lil Aishi
I've been rushing around like crazy these past few days!!
God, I'm sooo freakin busy

f.y.i. i luv it
x0x0, L

I HEARD IT THROUGH THE GRAPE VINE

2008-05-27T22:23:00.000+08:00

apparently it was a blast
congrats babe

Going to KL tomorrow
8 freakin a.m. bus...
Like I can even open my eyes before noon nowadays
Plans for tonight fell through but I'm trying to deal
Looking forward to cell phone hunting in KL
The o2 is my fav but I think I should look around
I only get one chance to get any phone I want
I'm not going to blow it
Not really very up and happy tonight though I should be
I mean I'm going to KL to hang with my totally cool godsis and godbros
But you know, it's just some little tick that's still lingering in my thoughts
My most recent obsession is Gossip Girl
Anyone who really knows me will have heard about it
It may be totally mean and bitchy
But it's extreamly interesting
Watched the new Indiana Jones today with Stef
Shia is sooooo hottt!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But like I said
I'm just not having a very up and happy day

f.y.i. Yea, it could be your fault
x0x0, L

HEART OF GLASS

2008-05-26T16:44:00.000+08:00

My most recent obsession

F.y.i it'll be mine by September....

x0x0, L

DO OR DIE

2008-05-25T20:29:00.000+08:00

I've finally realized what's been bothering me

I can't say much tonight without dumping out all my feelings
Which wouldn't be very fair to anyone
Maybe the time has come to make a decision
There are two choices and truthfully
I don't know which one will win
But I will say this
One out numbers the other by nearly a class

f.y.i. it's not my decision to make
x0x0, L

BREAKFAST AT TIFFANY'S

2008-05-25T09:04:00.000+08:00

Every woman's righful obsession

Had alot going on the last 2 days.
Went to MP till 5.30 on Friday
Went home and left for Jusco at 6.00
Stayed at Jusco with Stef and Asha till 10
Then on Saturday I went to church at 2.00
Got EXTREAMLY wet because of water day trial
Stayed in church till 10 and almost went out for late night bowling
And my parents don't even care.
It's because I have keys now and that I'm with my 'responsible' friends
They trust some of my friends
Today I'm trying to think of things to do but failing horribly
I'll just go to the gym again.
5 hours people! Got to put in my 5 hours!
On Monday I probably have to go shopping again
I need more sunglasses (recent obsession)
I had that 'talk' with Asha n Stef I was so freakin worried abt
Turns out, it was just some really tiny but important things
Thanks guys, I'll try to work on that
Wanted to go to B's hse today but her dad's heading off to Sarawak
My 2 week holiday has started and I'm looking forward to being
extreamly busy
and making the most of every day
Isn't that what life's about in the first place?

f.y.i. Don't judge me. I have it harder than you think

EVERYTHING AND NOTHING

2008-05-22T06:01:00.000+08:00

It's now 6.16 a.m.

I am still nervous about what will happen on Friday but
I'm positive it'll bring us all closer and I trust them
So, hopefully it benefits all of us

Aisyah and I have forgiven Khadijah because hey,
I really can't stay mad at someone for long...

Tomorrow is Friday...
I'm looking forward to it actually
Another thing I'm looking forward to is going out Friday night!
I'm a total night owl.
I way prefer going out at night

I've recently discovered the wonders of Gossip Girl
Yea, I've never watched it before this
I absolutely love it!
Getting freaking addicted!
Everyone keeps telling me I'm like Blair so I went to check it out
Turns out, I am!!! But in a toned down way
Not nearly that mean.

f.y.i. Blair's just misunderstood

THE MORNING AFTER THE DRAMA....

2008-05-21T06:35:00.000+08:00

sucked

I tried to tell my mom the problem...
Unfortunately, she's like an older Khadijah
Immediately it was my fault,
I shouldn't have told Aisyah about my problem
Therefore making her call me
I should learn to accept critisism.
If only she knew how much I'd taken in over the last half a year...
So basically, I'm having a really crap day...

f.y.i. it's only 6.48a.m.

I'M SCARED

2008-05-20T22:42:00.001+08:00

You've got me worried now.

REALLY worried and I'm in a place that's not pleasant
I have so many things to say to so many people now I really
don't know where to start
Three minutes of fighting, tears and hanging up, later...

Khadijah,
You are a great godsis, sometimes.
Truthfully, you hurt me and Aisyah so much it's insane
Stop giving us crap advice
You make it sound like we're stupid for not knowing it ourselves
That it's our fault
That we deserved it
And that we're morons because we didn't think of a way to solve this sooner
SHUT UP
Me and Aisyah are both crying right now and all you can do is sit there and
blame us
again
You say we need to grow up and that we're not mature enough
You are Aisyah's sister!
STOP ACTING LIKE HER BOSS
She doesn't need to hear all this shit from you
And when I called you that day I was really upset
What do you do?
You tell me my other friends actually hate me
I'm not humble enough
I'm immature
And I deserved everything I got
If you keep this up, I'm so not speaking to you
ever

For my other two godsisters

I'm in a scary place now
You say we have to talk and that it'll be fine
if I keep an open mind....
You want to wait till Friday...
I can't wait that long!
I. Am. Scared.
I want to know now so that if you're gonna ditch me as a godsister
I'll know before the hols
You said it'll be good for me and that you wouldn't do anything to hurt me
'trust us' you said
I do.
But this is scary for me because the last time this happened it didn't end well

This is a very emotional blog for me
Because all this happened within the last half hour
Some within the last 5 minutes

I have made a decision
Khadijah, I am no longer speaking to you
and I'm taking Aisyah with me
Asha, I'll wait.
But only because I trust you
And I believe that we can work things out

f.y.i. I AM Blair Waldorf. Enuf said.

MY WEIRD MOOD SWINGS...

2008-05-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

I'm happy
Y?
Because I finally have closure...
The kind that helped me forget all the previous problems
n focus on the positive future
For all those optimists around the world,
consider yourselves very lucky
I hope 2 stay positive and happy

we all know how long that lasts...

CANDLES~ MY SWEET ESCAPE

2008-05-19T14:33:00.000+08:00

I lurve vanilla scented candles.

I was thinking about my ex friends again today and once again
a sense of empty-ness fell over me
I absolutely love my friends now
But they're always busy...
all the time
noone seems to understand it
they all think 'it can't be that bad' or
'go find something to do'
Well I've been finding things to do for a really really long time now
I want to be able to do things with other ppl
is that really to much to ask??

f.y.i. so far, my day sucked

WHERE AM I?

2008-05-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

How do I explain what I'm feeling right now?

I'm alone
I've learned not to rely on certain ppl because I have to face facts
Some ppl just can't be trusted
I used to have a group of girls around me at all times
I used to have my own friends who listened to me and
didn't make me feel
awkward
But suddenly I've been abandoned by my own clique.
Is that even possible?
Apparently, it is
Now I know the fakers from the real friends...
When did I dissapear?
When did u decide that I wasn't good enough for my own friends?
Don't forget, I created that fake personality of yours
I helped u turn into that bitch you seem to have become
I miss my friends...
The ppl I have something in common with.
I hate seeing the cliques in my church now because I know I
don't belong in one anymore
The thing that hurts the most is that I created most of my ex friends'
mean attitudes
It's no longer Leah and gang
It's just Leah

f.y.i. Me, myself and I.....sucks

IN THIS LIFE

2008-05-18T22:53:00.000+08:00

I'm to confused to think straight
What am I going to do?
Noone really knows what's going on in school...
I'm still feelin pain from Friday...
Noone knows why
Here's a lil hint...
Sometimes a person runs
Just to see if anyone cares enough
to follow
Figure it out?
Then I call Khadijah who brings more bad news and pain
I honestly wish I wasn't Leah Lewis right now...

CAN'T I BE SOMEONE ELSE FOR JUST ONE DAY?

f.y.i. The whole runnin to see who follows? Doesn't work at all

I'M BACK

2008-05-12T21:29:00.000+08:00

Yes, yes.
I've been gone for a while.
But I'm having examz so what to do?
So far it's fine.
Tomorrow is English(EASY) and Accounts
I'm confident about the objective
But the actual calculating and all...
Not so cool
Truthfully?
I'm going for church camp soon and I want to have some new outfits for the occasion
Hopefully, my gorgeous mom will agree and hand out more cash
Sadly, being slightly plump, which I am
I can't wear alot of the stuff I really want to
But, nothing else to do but exercise and work on my diet
Hopefully, by my sweet sixteen
I'll be in much better shape.
Lol.

Let's focus on something more important, my hair

2008-05-09T17:53:00.001+08:00

Daily obsession~Highlighting my hair
Mood~Happy
Affirmation~Everything about you is crutial to how people see you,
especially your shoes

I am highlighting my hair people!!!
I'm going blonde
Seriously can't wait
Plannin on going to do it at Meglio with B so she can cut her hair
Examz went well
I think
Nothing much planned for the weekend.
Hopin to go hang at Jonker Walk with some fwens
Church on Sunday and then off to the gym for 5 freakin hours of personal trainer
Monday
Examz again.....

Project STUDY

2008-05-08T20:55:00.000+08:00

Daily obsession~ODM watches
Mood~Stressed
Affirmation~When life gives you lemons, add some glitter and cream and make
lemon glitter body scrub!!!!

yes people, I have examz comin up.
Lyk tomorrow!!!
So, I'm basically at crunch time now. Scared to death is more like
Just got a gift of RM300 from my parents for absolutely
no reason
Thinkin of gettin the new ODM watch.
You know, the 1 that's soooo chic right now?
Obviously, I'd get it in pink...
but the black and the white ones are super haute too...
oh well, I'll decide at the mall
Latest love?
Run The Show by Kat Deluna
Take A Bow by Rihanna
Hurry Up by Chenelle
I gtg
Studying again!!
ciao!!

I CAN BE YOUR ADDICTION IF YOU WANNA GET HOOKED ON ME

2008-05-03T19:55:00.000+08:00

Danity Kane=LOVE

I admit I'm kinda down right now but I have glitter so I'm gettin better
We watched Night At The Museum at church today
SOOO old but I liked the movie
We're havin a farwell party for Audrey later so that shud be funn
Going shoppin AGAIN with mom tomorrow
OMG!! Retouch My Body is soooo hillarious!!!
Yes, REtouch My Body
It's so funny I love it!!!

f.y.i I wasn't invited to her farewell party...as usual

GLITTER

2008-05-02T16:05:00.000+08:00

My obsession with glitter has NOT toned down
Not in the least
Ask anyone, even when I'm depressed, there's usually something glittery on me
Glitter and shimmer
My two favourite colours.
If only they were actual colours. Hahaha
Wen Lin's comin over tomorrow mui early to help me study
such a sweetheart to help me out
I'll even be dragging her to church like 3 hours early because I have pratice
How nice is she right?
Then B's comin over on Sunday, hopefully!!
Saw some pics of my cheer squad and I'm still high on our win
My squad really deserved it after all they've been put through
Well, most of them that is
I was a lil bit out of sorts lately so I went to Coffee Bean to have a Vanilla Ice Blended
Those things really work wonders.
Every woman should drink one every morning, just to help get in a great mood
I practically do. Hahaha
But I know coffee isn't good for me so I've toned it down a bit
Still planing my Sweet Sixteen
It is SOOO hard to decide where to have it
who to invite
what theme to have
Sometimes I just feel like having a small get together with my BFFs....
NAH!!! This is me!
Everything must be extravagent and big
That's how I work
Do it right or
Go home

VANILLA ICE BLENDEDS

2008-05-02T06:44:00.000+08:00

Coffee Bean also gets honourable mention for helpin me be positive
Newest obsession today??
Chanel
It's soooo chic
Chanel NEVER goes out of style, babes
And I have a new kind of therapy
The Devil Wears Prada
It's a natural uplifter to me
TGIF!!!
I can't wait to be set free after school today!

THANKS

2008-05-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

So many people have told me that I've recently become more mature
And that I've become more positive
How sweeettt!!!
Truthfully, I was so beyond happy when they mentioned it
Because I feel alot better about myself
But I have to give them credit as well
I wouldn't have been able to become optimistic if it wasn't for their natural optimism
Yes, my fabulous friends have a natural glow about them
They're all positive as hell
Optimistic beyond all belief
And are total dahlings!!
So thanks babies,
you've been fantastic

POSITIVE AFFIRMATIONS

2008-04-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

It's a well known fact that I have an obsession with
Versace
And I recently went to style.com
and released all my stress via
looking at fabulous dresses
Very good therapy.
I've recently become alot more positive
positive affirmations will change your whole outlook on life
It helps you handle stressful or problematic issues
with ease and patience
Works wonders.

I CATCH A GLIMPSE OF HEAVEN

2008-04-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

There are times you just want someone to share your problems with
Someone who's not just a friend
Someone who can help just by touching your hand
The mention of thier name sends you into a trance
The sound of thier voice sends chills up your spine
They always know just when to speak
They're protectiveness is actually cute
The way they look into your eyes like they can see into your heart
The way you know you make them happy
How they tell you how special you are
How they struggle to find the words to say
And when they give you that special smile they reserve just for you
You know you're safe

ONE MORE THING

2008-04-16T22:14:00.000+08:00

Before you get mad at someone for a small matter
Think about it for a second
Are you willing to drive them out of your life for it?

Don't try to out-bitch her

2008-04-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

I have the UPMOST respect for ppl who stand up for
what they believe in
and the ppl they care about
For those of you who do that, u know who u are,
never change

No matter what happens to our friendships now
Know that I really do lurve u guys
N I'll never stay mad at any of you
My mood swings may tell otherwise but the lurve is still there!!!

For the ppl who seem to have a problem with me...
get a life
why bother to hate someone you don't even know?
waste of time

For the peeps who believe in me
I appretiate all that you've done for me
It must be hard to keep believing in me
Even when I go through my horrible mood swings

I've learned to appretiate all that I have now,
Because I'd hate to lose any of it

J'adore la vie!

2008-04-10T19:24:00.000+08:00

It means I love life

My cheerleading squad won....
OMG WE WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Believe me, I was shocked the most!!
I really can't believe we won
I talked to Lydia last night. She made me realize some things.
I've also recently become traumatized by a dream I had last night.
I seriously CANNOT look at Joanne without laughing lyk hell
But I'm goin through some things now. Confusing stuff
I'm impatiently waiting for my dad to take me to get my pendant engraved
...I have a feeling that a friend of mine won't be happy when she discovers
I've been talking to Lydia..

PURE HATRED OR TRUE LOVE?

2008-04-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

You look at me
I look at you
But we don't talk at all
Everyone knows that we used to hate each other
But now I find myself thinking differently
We're not friends
Nor are we enemies.
Some say it's to Romeo And Juliet
But this is different,
Because we used to hate EACH OTHER
And I'm falling for you
hard
What am I supposed to do now?
I can't talk to you
I can't tell anyone else
I want to make it clear to you
But I don't
I'm afraid it's one sided.
You may still hate me, truely.
Why do I always fall for the wrong guys?
But I wonder

What happens when you fall for someone who hates you?

EACH HAPPY ENDING'S A BRAND NEW BEGINNING

2008-04-03T21:54:00.000+08:00

Ever heard that saying,

One door closes and two doors open?
I wonder if that's really true...
I think it is.
Cheerleading was so fabulous today.
LITERALLY!!!
THEY ACTUALLY WORKED HARD!!
I was so proud of my team
I can now say that even if we don't win, they worked hard and they're my champions
....CORNY!!!! Hahahahahaha
But at least they're trying now

I SURVIVED 3 PERIODS OF ACCOUNTS!!
Go me!!
Hahahaha. School was good
Tomorrow will be great
Bhakti's coming over!!!!!
So much fun.
Wow, I'm actually optimistic today...
COOL!!!
Luvz

I WISH

2008-04-02T18:47:00.000+08:00

I Wish

I was thin like Gisele
I was as 'bootylicious' as Beyonce
I was beautiful like Hayden
I was fun like Ashley
I was sophisticated like Catherine
I was confident like Kimora
I was mysterious like Madonna
I was talented like Leona

But I'm not
YAY!! I've accepted it!!!
Finally

Alone in a crowd of ppl

2008-03-31T16:17:00.000+08:00

Feeling awkward is normal right?
Is it supposed to happen lyk 90% of the time?
Is it supposed to make you feel rotten?
Lyk you don't belong?
Like even though they're nice and all, maybe they don't really want u around?
Even the most trusted ones feel lyk they don't want you there?

Yea, I get that alot

THE PURPLE-YELLOW BLANKET

2008-03-30T20:28:00.000+08:00

Yea, I realize that was random
Don't ask.
I got to see Water Horse today with Wen Lin, it's a good movie
But no hott guys.
I also forced Wen Lin to eat Sushi!!! Muahahaha
But she lyked it, so that was good
Church was fun today and my dad actually complained that I'm not girly enough anymore
ME
How totally wrong!
So now he insists I buy a new dress,
Oookkkaaayyyy
Not how I planned it but if I get a new dress in the proses, okay by me!!

It's all good

2008-03-29T15:21:00.000+08:00

I knew it!!!
I knew I'd get over it lyk that!
Sooo me, right?
Whatever, the point is, I'm happy again
Yes, Asha, you can relax now.
I'm presently waiting for ma dad to come home and pick me up for Youth.
I had school today but all I did was sit around with the other 3 gals that came.
Dunno what I'm gonna do tomorrow. Thinkin of going to catch a movie with some friends.
If I do, I'll watch lyk 3 in a row. Hahahaha.
No, I'm serious.