L.Y.L. Friday, August 29, 2008
Outside Looking In
Jordan Pruitt
You don't know my name
you don't know anything about me
I try to play nice
I want to be in your game
The things that you say
You may think I never hear about them
But word travels fast
I'm telling you to your face
I'm standing here behind your back
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in
If you could read my mind
You might see more of me that meets the eye
And you've been all wrong
Not who you think I am
You've never given me a chance
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in
Well, I'm tired of staying at home
I'm bored and all alone
I'm sick of wasting all my time
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend
on the outside looking in
Don't be so quick to judge
x0x0, L
Jordan Pruitt
You don't know my name
you don't know anything about me
I try to play nice
I want to be in your game
The things that you say
You may think I never hear about them
But word travels fast
I'm telling you to your face
I'm standing here behind your back
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in
If you could read my mind
You might see more of me that meets the eye
And you've been all wrong
Not who you think I am
You've never given me a chance
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in
Well, I'm tired of staying at home
I'm bored and all alone
I'm sick of wasting all my time
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend
on the outside looking in
Don't be so quick to judge
x0x0, L
Thursday, August 28, 2008
The Sharpay of IJC
yes, that is my nickname
deal with it
New song!
I Want It All
by Sharpay and Ryan Evans. HSM3
Sounds and looks awsome
Been kinda busy lately,
sorry!!
I'm not even telling Asha or Stef my problems
It's so complicated
But in a good way
Trying to focus on studies now
crunch time people!
Went to the gym again today
Bhakti is coming down for a little visit tomorrow 2
So we're planning on going shopping
I already got a new phone
1 freaking month before my BDay
and my parents said it's not even my present!!
So I still get the cash to spend in KL however I like
Yay me!
Things are working out so well lately
Don't you see that
bigger is better
and better is bigger
a little bit is never enough
I want it all
x0x0, L
yes, that is my nickname
deal with it
New song!
I Want It All
by Sharpay and Ryan Evans. HSM3
Sounds and looks awsome
Been kinda busy lately,
sorry!!
I'm not even telling Asha or Stef my problems
It's so complicated
But in a good way
Trying to focus on studies now
crunch time people!
Went to the gym again today
Bhakti is coming down for a little visit tomorrow 2
So we're planning on going shopping
I already got a new phone
1 freaking month before my BDay
and my parents said it's not even my present!!
So I still get the cash to spend in KL however I like
Yay me!
Things are working out so well lately
Don't you see that
bigger is better
and better is bigger
a little bit is never enough
I want it all
x0x0, L
Monday, August 25, 2008
I wanna get back
to the old days
when the phone would ring
and I knew it was you
Demi Lovato is excellent!!
Yes, the girl from Camp Rock
Girl can sing
Got a new phone yesterday
Pretty cool
Nothing fancy though
Don't need it
Church was good
Played Futsal with the youth on Sat
Loads of fun
I ended up hurting myself
But it was really funny
Lydia scored a goal
Go her!!
hahaha
I sucked at it
One week hols are now over
Sad sad sad
but next week I have a
4 day weekend...
so fun!
nothing much to say
x0x0, L
to the old days
when the phone would ring
and I knew it was you
Demi Lovato is excellent!!
Yes, the girl from Camp Rock
Girl can sing
Got a new phone yesterday
Pretty cool
Nothing fancy though
Don't need it
Church was good
Played Futsal with the youth on Sat
Loads of fun
I ended up hurting myself
But it was really funny
Lydia scored a goal
Go her!!
hahaha
I sucked at it
One week hols are now over
Sad sad sad
but next week I have a
4 day weekend...
so fun!
nothing much to say
x0x0, L
Friday, August 22, 2008
Shoutout to Garrett
Yes, emo boy, you
You really don't know how frustrating it is
To try to help you with your 'issues'
Ur emo about the same things all the time
Boy, it's been a year since her
Please, stop being so sad about it
Move on since she so clearly
has
I'm saying this entirely out of love as your friend
People get so angry with you
Constantly whining about her
You infect people by being so emo
Every time I talk to you,
you're either emo or just sad
I constantly have to make sure you don't freaking
cut yourself
And I'm always making sure you're okay
Lots of people do
They really care about you
And about what happens to you
Ignoring them and only
obsessing
over her
is an insult to us
and all we do for you
You're practically saying
'You're not helpin at all and I only care about
her'
You still consider hurting yourself because she
likes someone else
You beat yourself up over something that she did
And it was clearly an issue she had
She's sweet,
she's nice
But she got over it
Why can't you?
f.y.i. We'll always be there for you
x0x0, L
Yes, emo boy, you
You really don't know how frustrating it is
To try to help you with your 'issues'
Ur emo about the same things all the time
Boy, it's been a year since her
Please, stop being so sad about it
Move on since she so clearly
has
I'm saying this entirely out of love as your friend
People get so angry with you
Constantly whining about her
You infect people by being so emo
Every time I talk to you,
you're either emo or just sad
I constantly have to make sure you don't freaking
cut yourself
And I'm always making sure you're okay
Lots of people do
They really care about you
And about what happens to you
Ignoring them and only
obsessing
over her
is an insult to us
and all we do for you
You're practically saying
'You're not helpin at all and I only care about
her'
You still consider hurting yourself because she
likes someone else
You beat yourself up over something that she did
And it was clearly an issue she had
She's sweet,
she's nice
But she got over it
Why can't you?
f.y.i. We'll always be there for you
x0x0, L
Thursday, August 21, 2008
I'm so done here
Finally
I have had alot of shit happen to me this year
ALOT
Like, you don't even know
But I have come far and I've learned alot
And I dunno where it came from, but I got
more shit thrown at me
But you know something, I really don't care anymore
Go ahead
Say what you want
Yes, I am fat
Yes, I might be a fake
Yes, I might be a wanna be
And yes, my friends can be very flacky at times
But really, is this the game we want to play?
So maybe I'm not as mature as you
And maybe I'm not as smart or as experienced as you
And yes, I am a jealous person
I'll admit it all
But I really don't see the point of this bitching on blogs
And call it what you will
'She's giving up'
'She knows she's lost'
'She won't even fight'
No, I won't
Because I think both of us are mature enough to know better
This is so stupid
And yes, I have said some mean things that
I'm not proud of
And I'm sorry for that
But this cat and mouse game doesn't need to continue
You may be laughing as you read this,
'sooo pathethic'
you may be saying
Then so be it
It's a level of maturity
I'm done here
f.y.i. I don't want to play this game anymore
x0x0, L
Finally
I have had alot of shit happen to me this year
ALOT
Like, you don't even know
But I have come far and I've learned alot
And I dunno where it came from, but I got
more shit thrown at me
But you know something, I really don't care anymore
Go ahead
Say what you want
Yes, I am fat
Yes, I might be a fake
Yes, I might be a wanna be
And yes, my friends can be very flacky at times
But really, is this the game we want to play?
So maybe I'm not as mature as you
And maybe I'm not as smart or as experienced as you
And yes, I am a jealous person
I'll admit it all
But I really don't see the point of this bitching on blogs
And call it what you will
'She's giving up'
'She knows she's lost'
'She won't even fight'
No, I won't
Because I think both of us are mature enough to know better
This is so stupid
And yes, I have said some mean things that
I'm not proud of
And I'm sorry for that
But this cat and mouse game doesn't need to continue
You may be laughing as you read this,
'sooo pathethic'
you may be saying
Then so be it
It's a level of maturity
I'm done here
f.y.i. I don't want to play this game anymore
x0x0, L
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Treat your enemies with love
kill em with kindness ya'll
I'll pray for you
x0x0, L
kill em with kindness ya'll
I'll pray for you
x0x0, L
Okay, so there's this girl
Spreadin lies about me
And talking shit that I really don't appretiate
She thinks she's so cool
Now that she's part of my friends in youth
telling people crap about me so that she can
be popular and liked
Darling, that ain't how you do it
You don't need to tell lies
Just to get others to like you
I've spent 5 years in that church
Building up my credability and
sorting through friends
Tearing me down won't be that simple
And telling people my ex likes you?
I talked to him myself
As if!
He denies it all, babe
And people have confronted me about your lies
I've set them straight too
You sacrificed the trust other people had in you
Just to tear me down
Bad move
f.y.i. You've pissed me off now, hon
x0x0, L
Spreadin lies about me
And talking shit that I really don't appretiate
She thinks she's so cool
Now that she's part of my friends in youth
telling people crap about me so that she can
be popular and liked
Darling, that ain't how you do it
You don't need to tell lies
Just to get others to like you
I've spent 5 years in that church
Building up my credability and
sorting through friends
Tearing me down won't be that simple
And telling people my ex likes you?
I talked to him myself
As if!
He denies it all, babe
And people have confronted me about your lies
I've set them straight too
You sacrificed the trust other people had in you
Just to tear me down
Bad move
f.y.i. You've pissed me off now, hon
x0x0, L
AVRIL CANCELLED!!!!
OMG!!! What a bunch of morons!!
"Yesterday, we mentioned how the
Malaysia's Islamists
wanted Avril Lavigne's concert cancelled.
Who can blame them???
Apparently April's moves on stage were considered
"too sexy."
Haha!
In Malaysia, they require all performers to wear clothes
without obscene or drug-related images.
They also need to be covered from chest to knees and need to
refrain from shouting, jumping, hugging and
kissing on stage.
Well, yesterday Malaysia ended up canceling Lavigne's tour,
saying it was appropriate, especially with their
independence day celebrations soon approaching just
two days after the show.
The Arts, Culture and Heritage Ministry stated it decided
April's show was not suitable for Malaysian culture.
A rep from the ministry says, "It is not timely.
It's not in the good spirit of our National Day.
If we go ahead with the concert,
it is contrary to what we are preparing for."
An official from the youth wing of the fundamentalist opposition party,
the Pan-Malaysian Islamic Party, said
"We don't want our people, our teenagers,
influenced by their performance. We want clean artists,
artists that are good role models."
Good luck ever thinking Lavigne is a good role model!'
Taken from perezhilton.com
Sad sad sad for all those who bought tickets
Thank goodness it wasn't me
but if they cancel the Jonas Brothers if they come
I will murder someone!!!
f.y.i. I'm so dissapointed with Malaysia Parliment
x0x0, L
OMG!!! What a bunch of morons!!
"Yesterday, we mentioned how the
Malaysia's Islamists
wanted Avril Lavigne's concert cancelled.
Who can blame them???
Apparently April's moves on stage were considered
"too sexy."
Haha!
In Malaysia, they require all performers to wear clothes
without obscene or drug-related images.
They also need to be covered from chest to knees and need to
refrain from shouting, jumping, hugging and
kissing on stage.
Well, yesterday Malaysia ended up canceling Lavigne's tour,
saying it was appropriate, especially with their
independence day celebrations soon approaching just
two days after the show.
The Arts, Culture and Heritage Ministry stated it decided
April's show was not suitable for Malaysian culture.
A rep from the ministry says, "It is not timely.
It's not in the good spirit of our National Day.
If we go ahead with the concert,
it is contrary to what we are preparing for."
An official from the youth wing of the fundamentalist opposition party,
the Pan-Malaysian Islamic Party, said
"We don't want our people, our teenagers,
influenced by their performance. We want clean artists,
artists that are good role models."
Good luck ever thinking Lavigne is a good role model!'
Taken from perezhilton.com
Sad sad sad for all those who bought tickets
Thank goodness it wasn't me
but if they cancel the Jonas Brothers if they come
I will murder someone!!!
f.y.i. I'm so dissapointed with Malaysia Parliment
x0x0, L
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Music's in my soul
I get it from my dad
Went to KL today
Stopped at the Curve, Ikea and Mid Valley
Candles, sunnies, shoes and make-up, Oh My!!
I heart shopping
I also brought back a few cupcakes for my friends
Regret over that loser is gone
Temporary setback
Very odd
And I don't care if I feel unappretiated
I know I try my hardest to help them and one day
They'll realise it too
Maybe
Decided not to do anything to big for ma Sweet 16
Just going out then up to KL with some friends
That way, my parent's give me more money
for the cash I saved them for not having a huge party
And I can go insane in KLCC or Mid Valley
Fun fun fun
Can't wait
I'm also taking full advantage of my hols now
Going to the gym everyday
And hanging out with friends that I need to connect with
What could be better
Also, I have some major studying to do
For end year exams
Gag me
Oh well, I promised myself I'd do well
I'm not one of those girls who naturally get As
I'm also not one that goes to weirdo schools that
probably have very easy test so that they can get their fees
and students are happy because they think
they've gotten straight As
Oh well, guess we all don't get that lucky huh?
f.y.i. Hahahahahahahaha
x0x0, L
I get it from my dad
Went to KL today
Stopped at the Curve, Ikea and Mid Valley
Candles, sunnies, shoes and make-up, Oh My!!
I heart shopping
I also brought back a few cupcakes for my friends
Regret over that loser is gone
Temporary setback
Very odd
And I don't care if I feel unappretiated
I know I try my hardest to help them and one day
They'll realise it too
Maybe
Decided not to do anything to big for ma Sweet 16
Just going out then up to KL with some friends
That way, my parent's give me more money
for the cash I saved them for not having a huge party
And I can go insane in KLCC or Mid Valley
Fun fun fun
Can't wait
I'm also taking full advantage of my hols now
Going to the gym everyday
And hanging out with friends that I need to connect with
What could be better
Also, I have some major studying to do
For end year exams
Gag me
Oh well, I promised myself I'd do well
I'm not one of those girls who naturally get As
I'm also not one that goes to weirdo schools that
probably have very easy test so that they can get their fees
and students are happy because they think
they've gotten straight As
Oh well, guess we all don't get that lucky huh?
f.y.i. Hahahahahahahaha
x0x0, L
Sunday, August 17, 2008
UNDERAPPRETIATED
something we all feel from time to time
This is one of those times, people!
I try to be a good friend to those who need me
I try to be supportive even when I'm crying myself
I try to help others who have hurt me
I try to give good advice to those who don't want it
I've tried so hard for all of them
Can't say I'm like that all the time
That'd be lying.
But I really do try
But I always get that horrible doubt.
That sinking feeling in my stomach
would they do the same for me?
x0x0, L
something we all feel from time to time
This is one of those times, people!
I try to be a good friend to those who need me
I try to be supportive even when I'm crying myself
I try to help others who have hurt me
I try to give good advice to those who don't want it
I've tried so hard for all of them
Can't say I'm like that all the time
That'd be lying.
But I really do try
But I always get that horrible doubt.
That sinking feeling in my stomach
would they do the same for me?
x0x0, L
Regret isn't a word you'd usually find in
my dictionary
Until today
Shoot me
Just take out the gun,
Point it at my head
And pull the trigger!
I hate this!
This is sooo unfair for me
Lies are so easy to tell aren't they?
I just never know what is real and what isn't
At least I know I still have my precious little
sweetheart of a cousin
Hahaha
Some 7 year olds are sooo adorable!
f.y.i I heart Andrea, Bernice and Priscilla!! SOOO CUTE
x0x0, L
my dictionary
Until today
Shoot me
Just take out the gun,
Point it at my head
And pull the trigger!
I hate this!
This is sooo unfair for me
Lies are so easy to tell aren't they?
I just never know what is real and what isn't
At least I know I still have my precious little
sweetheart of a cousin
Hahaha
Some 7 year olds are sooo adorable!
f.y.i I heart Andrea, Bernice and Priscilla!! SOOO CUTE
x0x0, L
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Sometimes, that mountain
you've been climbing
is just a grain of sand
So Small
By Carrie Underwood
The BEST song ever
Absolutely awsome
so so incredible for her
I love her voice and you combine it with an inspiring song,
That's just so meaningful
Lydia came over today
The reason I love her is because of her advice
She's always there to give great advice that always helps
Learning to trust her again has been hard
But it's working out well
But I refuse to fall back into my A-List gal days
I will never become that girl again
I have left that in my past
So if you're trying to pick a fight with me
Or trying to make me jealous or mad,
It won't work.
f.y.i. My friends are my rock
x0x0, L
you've been climbing
is just a grain of sand
So Small
By Carrie Underwood
The BEST song ever
Absolutely awsome
so so incredible for her
I love her voice and you combine it with an inspiring song,
That's just so meaningful
Lydia came over today
The reason I love her is because of her advice
She's always there to give great advice that always helps
Learning to trust her again has been hard
But it's working out well
But I refuse to fall back into my A-List gal days
I will never become that girl again
I have left that in my past
So if you're trying to pick a fight with me
Or trying to make me jealous or mad,
It won't work.
f.y.i. My friends are my rock
x0x0, L
Friday, August 15, 2008
Like it babies?
Not totally together yet because I'm kinda blurr
at the moment
But hopefully it'll come together soon
Lots of love and peace!!!
Not totally together yet because I'm kinda blurr
at the moment
But hopefully it'll come together soon
Lots of love and peace!!!
x0x0, L
'There are two kinds of people who love life
The kind who love it negatively,
like calling people names
just to prove something
when all it signifies
is that they're insecure'
Talked dad into taking me to Nike tomorrow
I'm in need of new sport shoes and sweats
Also going to pick up some new ear phones for my precious
Pink iPod
U can bet they're gonna be pink
Went to the gym again today
Have to go tomorrow after shopping
Planning on going everyday this coming week
since I'm free
Also ordered some stuff off the Victoria's Secret site
Sweet 16 gifts
Hehehe
Soooo happy about that
Yes, my life does consist of shopping mostly.
Got a problem with that?
F.y.i. 'the other person lives life with a positive air
Loving everything and everyone because they
Couldn't bothered to hate'
x0x0, L
The kind who love it negatively,
like calling people names
just to prove something
when all it signifies
is that they're insecure'
Talked dad into taking me to Nike tomorrow
I'm in need of new sport shoes and sweats
Also going to pick up some new ear phones for my precious
Pink iPod
U can bet they're gonna be pink
Went to the gym again today
Have to go tomorrow after shopping
Planning on going everyday this coming week
since I'm free
Also ordered some stuff off the Victoria's Secret site
Sweet 16 gifts
Hehehe
Soooo happy about that
Yes, my life does consist of shopping mostly.
Got a problem with that?
F.y.i. 'the other person lives life with a positive air
Loving everything and everyone because they
Couldn't bothered to hate'
x0x0, L
Thursday, August 14, 2008
I am so not one
I'm mixed, dahlings n don't you ever forget it
Nth great happening lately
Just sitting around at school
Recently purchased Carrie Underwood's new CD
I'm not a fan of country music
but for her I'll make an exception
Her stuff is really good
I also bought Mary J. Blidge's newest CD
Very good
My obsession with sunnies hasn't died down
2 new pairs now added to my collection
Tried out the stuff at ZEN by Secret Recepie
Taramisu-not so great
But the Creme Brulle(is that how it's spelled?) was awsome
Big Apple Doughnuts?
Wayyy to sweet for my liking
One doughnut alone got me slightly sick
But it was incredibly good
My bday is coming up...
SWEET SIXTEEN
Should be awsome
f.y.i. another one bites the dust
x0x0, L
I'm mixed, dahlings n don't you ever forget it
Nth great happening lately
Just sitting around at school
Recently purchased Carrie Underwood's new CD
I'm not a fan of country music
but for her I'll make an exception
Her stuff is really good
I also bought Mary J. Blidge's newest CD
Very good
My obsession with sunnies hasn't died down
2 new pairs now added to my collection
Tried out the stuff at ZEN by Secret Recepie
Taramisu-not so great
But the Creme Brulle(is that how it's spelled?) was awsome
Big Apple Doughnuts?
Wayyy to sweet for my liking
One doughnut alone got me slightly sick
But it was incredibly good
My bday is coming up...
SWEET SIXTEEN
Should be awsome
f.y.i. another one bites the dust
x0x0, L
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Get a life
and leave me out of it
Literally, I want nothing to do with
you anymore
Ruin your life on your own time
I've got better things to do
f.y.i. New me
x0x0, L
and leave me out of it
Literally, I want nothing to do with
you anymore
Ruin your life on your own time
I've got better things to do
f.y.i. New me
x0x0, L
Saturday, August 9, 2008
If you have to ask 'why?'
you'll never be on
The A-List
Long time no type
Too lazy to even bother
And too busy with Sweet 16 junk
School
Friends
Boys
and all that jazz.
Bought 3 new pairs of sunnies
Why?
Because I freaking felt like it
Allowance was raised,
Shops were invaded
Lol.
Nothing thrilling happening lately
Shopping like crazy
Nails growing longer
Aisyah's Bday was a blast
But things since then have been sloww
f.y.i. So very bored
x0x0, L
you'll never be on
The A-List
Long time no type
Too lazy to even bother
And too busy with Sweet 16 junk
School
Friends
Boys
and all that jazz.
Bought 3 new pairs of sunnies
Why?
Because I freaking felt like it
Allowance was raised,
Shops were invaded
Lol.
Nothing thrilling happening lately
Shopping like crazy
Nails growing longer
Aisyah's Bday was a blast
But things since then have been sloww
f.y.i. So very bored
x0x0, L